OK, so first off, Zakk woke me up at 5:30am!!! So I only got 6 hours of sleep again last night. Instead of laying in bed trying to go back to sleep, I got up, started the coffee and what else... jumped on facebook to farm :) ha ha, I know wait for it... *eye roll... I did rather enjoy sitting in my front room with the blinds open and watching the sun rise, though. It was very serene. I was able to think and put myself in a fantastic mood. So I enjoyed 1 cup of coffee half filled thank you very much and less sugar this time. My goal for the month is to completely cut the sugar taste out and enjoy just the creamer. We will see how this goes. As I was making Chris's lunch, I noticed how badly my arms burned!! Which is great news because that means I did the weights just right. I turned on cartoons for Zakk and sent my husband off to work with a full lunch box and a protein shake. At 8am I took my shower and got dressed. Around 9:30a we made strawberry banana smoothies w/ fat free vanilla yogurt and 1 teaspoon of honey. OMG! It was soooo good!! You know when you buy a new set of glasses and they come w/ tall and short? Well I had a short glass and it was so filling. After that we went to the store and bought some more fruit, including the cut frozen bags for more smoothie options. Came home and went to Karen's to pick her up and get our names on the gym membership account. Karen is a wonderful woman and is so giving!! I love you ''MOM" :) Of course we get there and the owner is on a 3 hour lunch!!! lol , so we will have to do this another time. Came back home and had every intention of doing my laundry, but we all know how much i despise laundry! I did put one load in the washer though :D So as I sit here writing this, I am doing another because I put it off. GRRRR! So I piddled on facebook and watched a movie with my baby boy. Around 5pm I asked Zakk if he wanted to go outside and play since it has been soooo pretty the past few days. While he rode his bike, I walked up and down the street at a very slow pace. I think we stayed outside an hour. Came in ate dinner and watched my Greys Anatomy and Private Practice. Chris had to work late so going to the gym wasn't an option. I had it set in my head I wasn't going tonight so don't beat yourself up on something you cant control. Then as luck would have it, Allen started pestering me to go, ha ha. So, I went. Now I didn't want to go! But I made myself. Remember in my first post where I said, 3 months later I realized I had quit going to the gym!! Well, I am glad Allen ''made'' me go. So thank you Allen!! For that reason alone I did pretty awesome tonight.
Because it was 10pm, I was really nervous going up there by myself. I mean it's dangerous out there. Well that was the excuse I was giving myself. I started filling my head with crazy CSI thoughts!! LOL But when I got there, there was like 5 people in there and I felt better. So I jumped on the treadmill and set the pace at 2.0 and went to town... But the heart rate monitor was not liking that pace and kept telling me to GO SLOWER! PSH! I was like whatever!! How the hell am I going to break a sweat at 1.5 MPH???? So I took my arms off the bars and started swinging them. I heard somewhere it helps you burn more calories that way. I don't know if its true, but what the hell, right?? It cant hurt. So my intention was to warm up on the treadmill and move to the elliptical. Well I got in the zone, bumped my speed to 3.0 and kept going. When I looked down, (cuz I close my eyes and visualize the finish line) I had gone 22 minutes and burned 120 calories! I walked 0.85 miles. So I jumped off and went to the bike. A friend of mine told me I should try it. So I did. Lets just say the last time I tried a stationary bike, I did HORRIBLE! So I was nervous... I jumped on and started pedaling.. Well I don't know how long I was on there, because I couldn't figure out how to set my age weight and so on... I am going to guess 5 minutes. I jumped off and went to a bike I knew how to work. After I got it set up, I pushed my legs -- you know till you feel the burn?? Well come to find out, I was staying in the 70 range. Sometimes I would be at 79 RPM's and others on the hardest hill I would drop to like 69 RPM's.. Now I don't know if that is fast or not, but I do know that I went 3.67 miles in 10:12 minutes!!!!!!! And that was on random hill. WOO HOO!!! So in total I burned 180 calories and went 4.52 miles tonight! ( that I know of since I couldn't count the 1st bike) I didn't do weights because I left the gym at 11:20pm.
My arms still hurt and I am so glad I went to the gym.
Now here is the bad news. I HAVE GOT TO START EATING!!! If you noticed, I did not post anything about lunch. Why? Because I forgot to eat. I didn't even get hungry until 4pm. *face palm! After I added in my exercise, I only consumed 986 calories. I swear this is horrible! I am going to have to set a timer and eat when it goes off. I am just disappointed in myself. How do I expect to see results when I cant even consume the suggested amount 2100 for my weight??? I am going to down a bottle of water because its late and take my sleeping pill and go to bed. Please don't yell at me, I know what I am doing wrong!!! But I will always take advice and tips :)
PEGGY!!! THANK YOU FOR THE EMAIL :) You had a lot of good advice in there, my regular email is mystery7611@yahoo.com if you ever want to write me...
P.S. I know this is a super long post but I like to talk IN DETAIL!!! If you didn't already know that about me, well---- ya do now! LMAO
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Better late than never!
March 3, 2010-
So I woke up at 8am and only ended up getting around 6 hours of sleep. Not good for trying to lose weight. For some reason, I just couldn't sleep, even with a sleeping pill. So I made my coffee and had one cup. Immediately after, I downed a glass of water to make myself feel better! HA! I also got on facebook and farmed. I love my farm, I know it's just a game, but I am addicted! I can't go a day without checking it, rearranging it, or farming. I wish I could farm from my iPhone, but I cant. Don't get me wrong, they HAVE an app for farming, but it is NOT MY FARM VILLE! lol... I was in a mood from the get go. I wasn't pissed off or angry or anything, not even Blah, just a mood. I cant even describe it into words what I was feeling. It's like a mixture of sad, frustrated, and just wanting to be by myself. But as we all know, I have a very stubborn 3 year old that likes ALL of my attention. Plus I just wanted to escape reality. Bills are due and with our ac/heat unit on the fritz our electric bill tripled for 3 months! Now if I had been wise and paid attention in January when our bill doubled, I could have nipped the problem in the bud and been done with it. BUT NO! I just assumed because it was the billing cycle of around Christmas time, with us having the Christmas lights on and Zakk having a lamp on all night and our TV being on all the time that that was why our bill doubled! No big deal, paid the amount and continued on my way. Then, we got our February bill and it TRIPLED!!! I was not expecting that!! So I called them, and they so impolitely said that nearly every one's bill had doubled due to it being in the teens and low twenty's for a few weeks.... WELL HELLO! MINE TRIPLED! So I hung up frustrated and split my bill into two payments, because lets face it, you don't budget for a $650 electric bill. I had to tap into savings for that one. Then we finally got a service man out from Chris's company and come to find out, it was our thermostat being out and 2 wires were crossed, so for the slower ones out there that means that OUR AC/HEATER WAS RUNNING AT THE SAME TIME NON STOP!!!!!!!!! I was so thankful that we got it fixed and that I would start to see my electric bill back to around $150 a month. Then 3 days later, I got our electric bill for March, and it was $800! I was like seriously?? Cant we get a break around here??? So needless to say I screwed up and it ended up hurting us. So sorry for the rant, but it feels good to vent! So back to the original topic of wanting to escape reality. You see I needed to explain why I want to disappear. I mean we had the money but it was going to be used for something else... now its not :(
So all day i was .... lets call it depressed.... I wasn't motivated to do anything. I didnt clean. I wasn't hungry and didn't eat hardly anything again ( BAD I KNOW!!! DON'T YELL) and with Zakk wanting my attention all day, I just wasn't in the mood. I did manage to eat half a banana as a snack and a bologna sandwich w/ provolone cheese and mayo for lunch. Drank another 16oz of water with that and for dinner I had this new Ramon noodle style Chicken Lo Mien. It wasn't as good as the Chinese restaurant, but it was only 240 calories :) I also bought some crystal lite at the grocery store and made a 2 quart pitcher of it so that was 5 calories for one glass :)
Now adding up all my calories and not going to the gym I only managed to consume 1,005 calories!! WTH? How is it even possible that I am surviving??? LOL! My Lose It App has me budgeted for 2,162 calories A DAY! I haven't even come close all week!! I better lose some damn weight this week- but knowing me, my body is hording it all because it thinks i am starving. Trust me, I know the habits I am falling into are bad for long goal weight loss. But if I am not hungry, should I force myself to eat?? Or just eat when I am hungry??
I did not go to the gym because I just didn't have the energy to. I know here we go with the excuses all ready, but when your stressed out you just don't want to do anything. Plus I seriously hurt from the night before. It hurts to move my arms any which way, which is a GREAT thing!! My shoulders even hurt :) So, we ate dinner at 6pm and I didn't have a lick of anything else for the rest of the evening!!!!!!!!! Which is also great news. We watched TV, and put Zakk to bed around 10pm and as soon as he crashed around 10:15p I took my sleeping pill and we hit the sack. I fell asleep pretty quickly and was so happy to see this awful day put behind me.
Side note- Ya know it's been a solid 3 days without a coke or anything thing sweet like a cookie or ice cream or dessert-y. I think my emotions have something to do w/ that as well. Who knows.
So I woke up at 8am and only ended up getting around 6 hours of sleep. Not good for trying to lose weight. For some reason, I just couldn't sleep, even with a sleeping pill. So I made my coffee and had one cup. Immediately after, I downed a glass of water to make myself feel better! HA! I also got on facebook and farmed. I love my farm, I know it's just a game, but I am addicted! I can't go a day without checking it, rearranging it, or farming. I wish I could farm from my iPhone, but I cant. Don't get me wrong, they HAVE an app for farming, but it is NOT MY FARM VILLE! lol... I was in a mood from the get go. I wasn't pissed off or angry or anything, not even Blah, just a mood. I cant even describe it into words what I was feeling. It's like a mixture of sad, frustrated, and just wanting to be by myself. But as we all know, I have a very stubborn 3 year old that likes ALL of my attention. Plus I just wanted to escape reality. Bills are due and with our ac/heat unit on the fritz our electric bill tripled for 3 months! Now if I had been wise and paid attention in January when our bill doubled, I could have nipped the problem in the bud and been done with it. BUT NO! I just assumed because it was the billing cycle of around Christmas time, with us having the Christmas lights on and Zakk having a lamp on all night and our TV being on all the time that that was why our bill doubled! No big deal, paid the amount and continued on my way. Then, we got our February bill and it TRIPLED!!! I was not expecting that!! So I called them, and they so impolitely said that nearly every one's bill had doubled due to it being in the teens and low twenty's for a few weeks.... WELL HELLO! MINE TRIPLED! So I hung up frustrated and split my bill into two payments, because lets face it, you don't budget for a $650 electric bill. I had to tap into savings for that one. Then we finally got a service man out from Chris's company and come to find out, it was our thermostat being out and 2 wires were crossed, so for the slower ones out there that means that OUR AC/HEATER WAS RUNNING AT THE SAME TIME NON STOP!!!!!!!!! I was so thankful that we got it fixed and that I would start to see my electric bill back to around $150 a month. Then 3 days later, I got our electric bill for March, and it was $800! I was like seriously?? Cant we get a break around here??? So needless to say I screwed up and it ended up hurting us. So sorry for the rant, but it feels good to vent! So back to the original topic of wanting to escape reality. You see I needed to explain why I want to disappear. I mean we had the money but it was going to be used for something else... now its not :(
So all day i was .... lets call it depressed.... I wasn't motivated to do anything. I didnt clean. I wasn't hungry and didn't eat hardly anything again ( BAD I KNOW!!! DON'T YELL) and with Zakk wanting my attention all day, I just wasn't in the mood. I did manage to eat half a banana as a snack and a bologna sandwich w/ provolone cheese and mayo for lunch. Drank another 16oz of water with that and for dinner I had this new Ramon noodle style Chicken Lo Mien. It wasn't as good as the Chinese restaurant, but it was only 240 calories :) I also bought some crystal lite at the grocery store and made a 2 quart pitcher of it so that was 5 calories for one glass :)
Now adding up all my calories and not going to the gym I only managed to consume 1,005 calories!! WTH? How is it even possible that I am surviving??? LOL! My Lose It App has me budgeted for 2,162 calories A DAY! I haven't even come close all week!! I better lose some damn weight this week- but knowing me, my body is hording it all because it thinks i am starving. Trust me, I know the habits I am falling into are bad for long goal weight loss. But if I am not hungry, should I force myself to eat?? Or just eat when I am hungry??
I did not go to the gym because I just didn't have the energy to. I know here we go with the excuses all ready, but when your stressed out you just don't want to do anything. Plus I seriously hurt from the night before. It hurts to move my arms any which way, which is a GREAT thing!! My shoulders even hurt :) So, we ate dinner at 6pm and I didn't have a lick of anything else for the rest of the evening!!!!!!!!! Which is also great news. We watched TV, and put Zakk to bed around 10pm and as soon as he crashed around 10:15p I took my sleeping pill and we hit the sack. I fell asleep pretty quickly and was so happy to see this awful day put behind me.
Side note- Ya know it's been a solid 3 days without a coke or anything thing sweet like a cookie or ice cream or dessert-y. I think my emotions have something to do w/ that as well. Who knows.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Today is March 2, 2010
My name is Erin and I have decided to follow in my sister's footsteps and jump on this Thin In 2010 bandwagon. I have been struggling with my weight since 2002 and only after having my son did I really spiral out of control. Every year I say I am going to lose this weight and every year I find some ''excuse'' as to why I cant right then and there. But not anymore, I am turning 30 on Saturday I the longer I put this off, the worse I will become. At least that's what I fear.
I used to be extremely active as a young adult. I was always on the go and never had to worry about what I was eating or drinking or doing. But then, I got married and comfortable and just didn't work so hard on keeping thin. And well, Chris has been amazing thru the years, but has also been my enabler. He has always told me, even to this day, how he doesn't care what I look like, and how beautiful I am, and he loves me no matter what! But now the problem is, I DON'T LOVE MYSELF anymore! I am disgusted every time I look in the mirror and have pretty much quit looking at myself. I yo-yo diet and cant lose more than 30 lbs, at a time. I get frustrated and give up. I have joined the gym more times than I can count and go hard and heavy for about 6 months and then an injury happens, or I get sick, or I tell myself i can skip just this once, its OK. Then 3 months later, I realize I have quit going... its horrible!!!!
So, this year at the beginning of it, I told myself- Erin, you have got to do this. No more kidding around. I lost like 10 lbs in January and then February came along and before I realized it, I had gained my 10 back and then some. If you haven't noticed, I have quit posting pictures of myself. This is why.. I cant hide my fat face anymore :( The good news is, everyone in my household has gotten on the same page and we all want the same thing. To get fit. So this will make it easier on me. Because I am horrible at this alone. I need support and encouragement. And the fact that everyone is willing to eat right and exercise, I know that I will be more likely to succeed at this. I am not setting the bar too high this time, and I am not going to fill my thoughts with unrealistic expectations. I am following in my sisters footsteps and I am going to do mini goals like weight watchers tells you to do, I am going to give myself a rewards chart, and I am only going to take this one day at a time. So this is it. Buckle up cuz its gonna be a bumpy ride, but I really think I can do this. Here we go!
So here is what I did today:
I got out of bed at 9am (horrible i know!) and roughly got 8 hrs of sleep which is good!! I made coffee and played on my farm on facebook :) I had 1 cup of coffee w/ fat free french vanilla creamer and regular sugar. I KNOW! the sugar killed it, but i forgot to buy my splenda. Then, we got dressed and left the house. Went to a couple of banks, and to this place called entertainmart to buy Zakk a game. We stopped at McDonald's for lunch and all i ordered was a SMALL CHEESEBURGER. and guess what! I only ate 1/2 of it~! No fries No coke! We then went to walmart and grocery shopped. Spent an hour in that place and for slow paced walking I think I burned 178 calories, at least that's what my lose it app says. Came home and put the groceries away and then let my son play outside w/ the neighbor kids and I sat and talked to their mom.. my friend :) Chris came home and we went to the gym. I walked for 15 minutes at 3.0 speed on the treadmill and then decided to work on my arms for the night. I used 4 different arm machines and did 3 reps of 20 on each. I wasn't hydrated enough and didn't sweat my ass off, but I put in a good first workout! I am proud of my self, until I came home! So Zakk wanted biscuits and gravy for dinner. So I made it, and ate it. I had 3 biscuits and a dollop of gravy on each 1/2 of biscuit. But if you know me and you know what I usually eat and drink this is OK. NOW here is where you all stand up and applaud me! ALL DAY (besides coffee) I drank NOTHING but water! That is a feat in itself for me, for I hate water! I will go thirsty before I drink water on a regular basis!! But I did it and I am happy with my day. I did not stuff sweet stuff down my throat all day and I didn't sit on my butt and do nothing all day! I am working in the right direction, it is just going to take time.
So lets recap:
Water- 4 glasses 0 calories
Coffee- 1 cup 227 calories (roughly)
1/2 cheeseburger- 156 calories
clementine- 35 calories
3 biscuits- 160 calories
gravy- 179 calories (roughly)
TOTAL: ***757 calories consumed
Exercise:
walking in the store- 178 calories burned
gym treadmill- 68 calories burned
gym weights- 118 calories burned (roughly)
TOTAL: ***364 calories burned
which means I actually only consumed about 394 calories today! EEP, that is not much at all!!
Now, it is late and I am going to take my sleeping pill and go on to bed, i am tired!! More tomorrow :)
***ROUGHLY: since I don't know exactly how much I actually burned..
My name is Erin and I have decided to follow in my sister's footsteps and jump on this Thin In 2010 bandwagon. I have been struggling with my weight since 2002 and only after having my son did I really spiral out of control. Every year I say I am going to lose this weight and every year I find some ''excuse'' as to why I cant right then and there. But not anymore, I am turning 30 on Saturday I the longer I put this off, the worse I will become. At least that's what I fear.
I used to be extremely active as a young adult. I was always on the go and never had to worry about what I was eating or drinking or doing. But then, I got married and comfortable and just didn't work so hard on keeping thin. And well, Chris has been amazing thru the years, but has also been my enabler. He has always told me, even to this day, how he doesn't care what I look like, and how beautiful I am, and he loves me no matter what! But now the problem is, I DON'T LOVE MYSELF anymore! I am disgusted every time I look in the mirror and have pretty much quit looking at myself. I yo-yo diet and cant lose more than 30 lbs, at a time. I get frustrated and give up. I have joined the gym more times than I can count and go hard and heavy for about 6 months and then an injury happens, or I get sick, or I tell myself i can skip just this once, its OK. Then 3 months later, I realize I have quit going... its horrible!!!!
So, this year at the beginning of it, I told myself- Erin, you have got to do this. No more kidding around. I lost like 10 lbs in January and then February came along and before I realized it, I had gained my 10 back and then some. If you haven't noticed, I have quit posting pictures of myself. This is why.. I cant hide my fat face anymore :( The good news is, everyone in my household has gotten on the same page and we all want the same thing. To get fit. So this will make it easier on me. Because I am horrible at this alone. I need support and encouragement. And the fact that everyone is willing to eat right and exercise, I know that I will be more likely to succeed at this. I am not setting the bar too high this time, and I am not going to fill my thoughts with unrealistic expectations. I am following in my sisters footsteps and I am going to do mini goals like weight watchers tells you to do, I am going to give myself a rewards chart, and I am only going to take this one day at a time. So this is it. Buckle up cuz its gonna be a bumpy ride, but I really think I can do this. Here we go!
So here is what I did today:
I got out of bed at 9am (horrible i know!) and roughly got 8 hrs of sleep which is good!! I made coffee and played on my farm on facebook :) I had 1 cup of coffee w/ fat free french vanilla creamer and regular sugar. I KNOW! the sugar killed it, but i forgot to buy my splenda. Then, we got dressed and left the house. Went to a couple of banks, and to this place called entertainmart to buy Zakk a game. We stopped at McDonald's for lunch and all i ordered was a SMALL CHEESEBURGER. and guess what! I only ate 1/2 of it~! No fries No coke! We then went to walmart and grocery shopped. Spent an hour in that place and for slow paced walking I think I burned 178 calories, at least that's what my lose it app says. Came home and put the groceries away and then let my son play outside w/ the neighbor kids and I sat and talked to their mom.. my friend :) Chris came home and we went to the gym. I walked for 15 minutes at 3.0 speed on the treadmill and then decided to work on my arms for the night. I used 4 different arm machines and did 3 reps of 20 on each. I wasn't hydrated enough and didn't sweat my ass off, but I put in a good first workout! I am proud of my self, until I came home! So Zakk wanted biscuits and gravy for dinner. So I made it, and ate it. I had 3 biscuits and a dollop of gravy on each 1/2 of biscuit. But if you know me and you know what I usually eat and drink this is OK. NOW here is where you all stand up and applaud me! ALL DAY (besides coffee) I drank NOTHING but water! That is a feat in itself for me, for I hate water! I will go thirsty before I drink water on a regular basis!! But I did it and I am happy with my day. I did not stuff sweet stuff down my throat all day and I didn't sit on my butt and do nothing all day! I am working in the right direction, it is just going to take time.
So lets recap:
Water- 4 glasses 0 calories
Coffee- 1 cup 227 calories (roughly)
1/2 cheeseburger- 156 calories
clementine- 35 calories
3 biscuits- 160 calories
gravy- 179 calories (roughly)
TOTAL: ***757 calories consumed
Exercise:
walking in the store- 178 calories burned
gym treadmill- 68 calories burned
gym weights- 118 calories burned (roughly)
TOTAL: ***364 calories burned
which means I actually only consumed about 394 calories today! EEP, that is not much at all!!
Now, it is late and I am going to take my sleeping pill and go on to bed, i am tired!! More tomorrow :)
***ROUGHLY: since I don't know exactly how much I actually burned..
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